Why is it you can be so sure in your heart about a decision, choice or circumstance... only to question that same decision, choice or circumstance down the road?
I really wish someone would develop a system or something so that God could just email us! It would be so much easier to know. Just think of all the things we could do for him!
Heck if someone can know when he is going to return then why can't they get this email thingy going?
Decisions... choices... the fork in the road... sometimes it would be easier to just be a puppet...
Monday, May 23, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Betrayal, deception & yada
This morning I read that Arnold Schwarzenegger has admitted to fathering a child with a staff member 10 years ago. I read a few weeks ago that he and his wife Maria Shriver separated after 25 years of marriage. According to the news, he didn't tell her about this affair until just recently when he left the governor's office.
I don't understand how he could live with his wife for the last 10 years knowing what he had done. How could he look her in the face? How could he deny love to the child he fathered?
Deception
That's how.
He has lived a false life for years. He has lied to cover up his lies. He has been drowning in deception.
I am not necessarily a fan of Arnold but my heart breaks for this family... for our society. Why is this happening more and more? How many times is this going to happen before we say enough?
It doesn't help when celebrities and "experts" speak out against marriage. These are people that society "looks up to". Where are the celebrities and experts that are supporting marriage? They are out there but the mainstream news doesn't want to hear about it.
Is it because they we to live like the Corinthians? Is seems that our society wants to live however we want to live, do what we want to do regardless of the consequences. We don't want any accountability.
But we aren't living the lives we are truly meant to live. Jesus came to give us life. Not just a boring, legalistic Christian life... he came to bring us a full and abundant life. A life full of joy, love, desires, fun and so much more.
We must take a stand for marriage... for life. He wants us to see the full and abundant life that he wants for us! Not the deceptive, false life full of yuck but a life full of yada. We as Christians need to stand up and speak against this stuff!
Jesus come... we desperately need you... show us the life you want for us...
I don't understand how he could live with his wife for the last 10 years knowing what he had done. How could he look her in the face? How could he deny love to the child he fathered?
Deception
That's how.
He has lived a false life for years. He has lied to cover up his lies. He has been drowning in deception.
I am not necessarily a fan of Arnold but my heart breaks for this family... for our society. Why is this happening more and more? How many times is this going to happen before we say enough?
It doesn't help when celebrities and "experts" speak out against marriage. These are people that society "looks up to". Where are the celebrities and experts that are supporting marriage? They are out there but the mainstream news doesn't want to hear about it.
Is it because they we to live like the Corinthians? Is seems that our society wants to live however we want to live, do what we want to do regardless of the consequences. We don't want any accountability.
But we aren't living the lives we are truly meant to live. Jesus came to give us life. Not just a boring, legalistic Christian life... he came to bring us a full and abundant life. A life full of joy, love, desires, fun and so much more.
We must take a stand for marriage... for life. He wants us to see the full and abundant life that he wants for us! Not the deceptive, false life full of yuck but a life full of yada. We as Christians need to stand up and speak against this stuff!
Jesus come... we desperately need you... show us the life you want for us...
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Does he see me?
Today as I was raking the moss from our lawn a little girl rode by on a bike. She rode by a few more times during the afternoon. I continued to rake when I had one of those memories... you know the ones where it's like you were back in time?
The memory was me on my bike... riding back and forth, all around the neighborhood I grew up in. But I wasn't just randomly riding around... at least not every ride. On these rides I would ride back and forth in front of a couple of boys' homes who lived in my neighborhood. I would ride in the hopes that they would notice me. I wanted to be seen... I wanted to be noticed... I wanted to know that I was delighted in.
Unfortunately those bike rides and those boys never answered those questions for me. Those questions were also not answered for me at home.
They just continued to linger and intensify...
I made poor choices throughout my teen and early adult years trying to have my questions answered.
But the questions still lingered...
It wasn't until I was into my 30s when I finally got my question answered... but it wasn't while I rode my bike, drove my car. Nor were they answered by a boy or a man... (though he did bring me a great man who does notice me!)
Jesus is the one who answered my questions...
HE sees me.
HE knows me.
HE feels all that I feel.
I am enough in him.
Thank you Jesus that you see me, know me and love me.
Thank you for answering my questions...
The memory was me on my bike... riding back and forth, all around the neighborhood I grew up in. But I wasn't just randomly riding around... at least not every ride. On these rides I would ride back and forth in front of a couple of boys' homes who lived in my neighborhood. I would ride in the hopes that they would notice me. I wanted to be seen... I wanted to be noticed... I wanted to know that I was delighted in.
Unfortunately those bike rides and those boys never answered those questions for me. Those questions were also not answered for me at home.
They just continued to linger and intensify...
I made poor choices throughout my teen and early adult years trying to have my questions answered.
But the questions still lingered...
It wasn't until I was into my 30s when I finally got my question answered... but it wasn't while I rode my bike, drove my car. Nor were they answered by a boy or a man... (though he did bring me a great man who does notice me!)
Jesus is the one who answered my questions...
HE sees me.
HE knows me.
HE feels all that I feel.
I am enough in him.
Thank you Jesus that you see me, know me and love me.
Thank you for answering my questions...
Friday, May 13, 2011
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Yada, yada, yada
I desire yada...
I desire yada in my relationships...
I desire yada with my husband...
I know that I am yada by God...
What in the word is yada?? We've all heard this phrase... "yada, yada, yada". People use this phrase as in "blah, blah, blah". But the real meaning of yada is so much more...
Yada is actually a Hebrew verb. It means to know, to be known, to be deeply respected...
"Be still, and yada that I am God." Psalm 46:10
"O Lord, you have searched me and you yada me." Psalm 139:1
To be known truly, deeply, intimately.
Yada also can be used in this way...
"Adam yada with his wife Eve.." Genesis 4:1
Yes it means he had sex with her... but it was so much more. It was an act of intimacy that transcends the physical. It was a deep connection, a deep knowing of each other. It was what God intended sex to be. Not just shakab. (Another interesting word for another post.)
I recently read a quote from John Eldredge that struck my heart... "We weren't made to be ignored."
That is right because we were made for yada, yada, yada!
So Lord help me yada you, help me be yada by others, help me do yada with my husband and help me show yada to others! Give me more yada!
I bet you'll never see yada in the same way again! :-)
I desire yada in my relationships...
I desire yada with my husband...
I know that I am yada by God...
What in the word is yada?? We've all heard this phrase... "yada, yada, yada". People use this phrase as in "blah, blah, blah". But the real meaning of yada is so much more...
Yada is actually a Hebrew verb. It means to know, to be known, to be deeply respected...
"Be still, and yada that I am God." Psalm 46:10
"O Lord, you have searched me and you yada me." Psalm 139:1
To be known truly, deeply, intimately.
Yada also can be used in this way...
"Adam yada with his wife Eve.." Genesis 4:1
Yes it means he had sex with her... but it was so much more. It was an act of intimacy that transcends the physical. It was a deep connection, a deep knowing of each other. It was what God intended sex to be. Not just shakab. (Another interesting word for another post.)
I recently read a quote from John Eldredge that struck my heart... "We weren't made to be ignored."
That is right because we were made for yada, yada, yada!
So Lord help me yada you, help me be yada by others, help me do yada with my husband and help me show yada to others! Give me more yada!
I bet you'll never see yada in the same way again! :-)
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Rejection
How many times can someone face rejection until they stop trying? 3, 7, 107 times? Is there even a correct answer?
How many times was Jesus rejected? We all know he was rejected by the pharisees, Pilate and many more. His beloved Peter rejected him three times even though he said he never would.
Yet Jesus continued to love them. He restored Peter even though he betrayed him. He died on the cross for all even though they beat & killed him. Even though he had to power to say no to the cross.
But he is Jesus...
I am only me.
How do I do the same?
How much rejection can I take?
How do I continue to be transparent, real and loving in the midst of rejection?
Of course there is the flipant Christian answer of "just ask Jesus...he'll never reject you". But I don't want a flipant answer. I need a real answer. I know that Jesus loves me and will never leave, forsake or reject me. I know he is my all in all. I truly believe that.
But if that is the only answer then why did he put billions of people on this planet? Why did he create relationships? Just so we can become successful and make money or build bigger churches or what?
Didn't he create us for relationship? Isn't part of a relationship being real with one another? And then loving one another even though the realness is uncomfortable? How many times does it say to love one another in the bible? This phrase is used 11 times in the bible. How many times does it say to love one another unless they are too real? 0 times.
I often think that I am too real. Which leads to people not knowing how to deal with my realness. Which then leads to rejection. Why am I like this? Why can't I just be a happy, fake Christian?
I know the answer to these questions... it's because this is how God made me. He made me this way for a reason. I don't know the reasons, though some days I desperately wish that I did. I know He made me in his image... which is real.
And sometimes... Real = rejection.
How many people out there reject Jesus every moment? Millions
How many people out there are rejecting me at this moment? Not millions but enough that I feel it
This doesn't necessarily make me feel better. Nor does it answer my question as to how to deal with the rejection. But it does help me remember that if anyone knows rejection it's Jesus...
So Jesus... how do you deal with the rejection? Because I could really use some tips right now...
How many times was Jesus rejected? We all know he was rejected by the pharisees, Pilate and many more. His beloved Peter rejected him three times even though he said he never would.
Yet Jesus continued to love them. He restored Peter even though he betrayed him. He died on the cross for all even though they beat & killed him. Even though he had to power to say no to the cross.
But he is Jesus...
I am only me.
How do I do the same?
How much rejection can I take?
How do I continue to be transparent, real and loving in the midst of rejection?
Of course there is the flipant Christian answer of "just ask Jesus...he'll never reject you". But I don't want a flipant answer. I need a real answer. I know that Jesus loves me and will never leave, forsake or reject me. I know he is my all in all. I truly believe that.
But if that is the only answer then why did he put billions of people on this planet? Why did he create relationships? Just so we can become successful and make money or build bigger churches or what?
Didn't he create us for relationship? Isn't part of a relationship being real with one another? And then loving one another even though the realness is uncomfortable? How many times does it say to love one another in the bible? This phrase is used 11 times in the bible. How many times does it say to love one another unless they are too real? 0 times.
I often think that I am too real. Which leads to people not knowing how to deal with my realness. Which then leads to rejection. Why am I like this? Why can't I just be a happy, fake Christian?
I know the answer to these questions... it's because this is how God made me. He made me this way for a reason. I don't know the reasons, though some days I desperately wish that I did. I know He made me in his image... which is real.
And sometimes... Real = rejection.
How many people out there reject Jesus every moment? Millions
How many people out there are rejecting me at this moment? Not millions but enough that I feel it
This doesn't necessarily make me feel better. Nor does it answer my question as to how to deal with the rejection. But it does help me remember that if anyone knows rejection it's Jesus...
So Jesus... how do you deal with the rejection? Because I could really use some tips right now...
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